Diet Diaries

That is a clip from one of my new favorite movies.  Scott Pilgrim vs. The World.  It's awesome.  Rent it right now.  Yes, right now.  In fact, read the rest of this blog later, and go watch it.  It's way more fun than me. ;)
I'm pretty sure everybody else has already come to this knowledge, and by blogging about it, I am in no way telling you anything new.  But I am going to blog about it any way, because I want to.  So there.  Neener neener neener! :)
I was making my self a sandwich this afternoon, and counting my calories.  So everything I was using was being calculated, and I discovered, that bread indeed does make you fat.  What the what!?  Bread is delicious and I love it.  LOVE it!  I mean I really love it.  When I was in high school, it was pretty much all I ate because I didn't like anything else my mom cooked.  She wasn't a terrible cook or anything.  I just don't like steak, and I didn't like hamburger (I've gotten over it), and I don't like pot roast and basically red meat.  Don't be a hater.  I don't have to like everything you like!
So I typed in my calories (I have an app on my phone that keeps track):  1.5 servings deli turkey - 90 calories.  Lettuce - 4 calories (who knew lettuce had any at all!).  1/4 of a medium tomato (I was just guessing, really) - 6 calories.  1 ounce Swiss cheese - 106 calories.  1 hoagie roll - 280 calories.
Total calories: 486.
Now, I know this is a reasonable amount of calories for one meal.  But I am only allowed 1500 calories a day.  Less if I want to figure out how to stop emotionally eating and loose weight faster.  But if I didn't eat the bread on my sandwich and just wrapped it up in the lettuce, my lunch would have been 206 calories!  Less than half!  And wheat bread might have more nutrition in it for you, but the calories are not much different.  I searched it on my app to find out.  So how did I console myself with this new realization?  That I must give up bread?  By eating brownies.  Yep.  I'm super.  Super messed up!  So I will eat bread until I can come to the grips with the fact that it is something that must be cut out of my diet.  Along with candy.  The other thing I am addicted to.  Don't laugh.  It's true.  I told Kurtis I was addicted to candy once, and he laughed at me.  "You can't be addicted to candy."  I believe those were his exact words.  You can be addicted to anything!  Mine is just legal, and easy to get.  Lucky for him, it's not heroine (although if it were I would at least be skinny! :D).  Sometimes I want to punch him.
So yes, I am going to try to not eat bread.  I have to cut it out because bread is like candy.  Once I start eating it, it is incredibly difficult for me to stop.  Candy and bread.  So far, I am not doing very well.  I raided the chocolate chips because I am not quite desperate enough to get into the Easter candy (yet), and I ate way too many slices of wheat french bread at dinner.