Wednesday, February 3, 2010
I Would Have Loved to Have a Little Girl
So I have been watching the cutest little girl for the last week and a half, and will be for another week and a half for my friend while she helps with a merger at work. I thought that having such a cute little two-year-old would make me want to have a baby and try for a girl. I was a little worried. I've given away all my baby stuff, and have moved on from that stage in life. Sometimes, though, I wonder if we had tried again, would we have been blessed with a girl. But in all honesty, I am totally done having children. I love babies. They are so sweet and cute, and just eat, sleep, cry, poop. But I don't have to change diapers any more, and I am really quite fine with that. Kaleb has been potty trained for awhile now, and the one time I had to change Kate's poopy diaper (she's not here all day, so I usually only have to change her twice, and usually, she's not poopy), I realised something had changed. I didn't mind changing her, but I did mind the smell. I had to get out the air freshener! When I had babies and was changing diapers I never did that. I guess we figured what was the point, right? Yeah. So even though my youngest is five, I still get asked if I want more. Let me just clear this little question up for you right here and now. Then you don't have to ask me any akward questions. I'm done having kids. I have three boys. The last time I had a baby, I wanted to kill myself. Literally. I am fine now. Loosing weight helped, but I am not going to have a big family like my mother. During my pregnancies with Riley and Kaleb, my placenta grew old prematurely and they had to be monitored. My doctor asked if I wanted more children at my six week check up. I told her I felt like I was done. She told me that was a good thing, and that I probably shouldn't have any more. So that's that. No more kids. I am easily stressed out, oh, and I am going to kindergarden for the 4th time in my life starting next year. Yeah. This is the part they don't tell you when you get pregnant. They are all way too excited for the little baby. Babies don't stay babies. They grow up to be mouthy little children who go to school, and bring home homwork, that you get to do with them. So please don't ask me any more. If I had wanted more kids, I would have had them by now. Have a great day! Love your guts!